Post 4: Nature

I went up to the roof deck of my condominium complex and lied down, looking at the clouds, stars, and listened to the ocean in the still night. At first my environment proved to be a great place to collect and organize my thoughts, but after a good five or ten minutes it became a great place to lose them. First of all it was very relaxing, one of the side affects to the serene beauty. I was amazed at the chaos of the world in contrast with the simplicity of nature and how they are one. My mind began to wander and my thoughts went off on a tangent: 

How I could be experiencing two completely contradictory things at once (being lost in my surroundings but able to find and center myself.) It is interesting how opposites work together always. Everything that is real is balanced and everything that is not real balances the real, and that s only as far as my stream of consciousness is able to take it. Because the words 'lost' and 'found' contradict each other while they are eternally linked, it made me think that language and words limit expression sometimes. Sometimes the words we need to properly, completely, and truthfully express something don't exist and therefore people just keep using more words until they have properly expressed themselves. The only way to get rid of miscommunication would be to get rid of communication itself. And therefore if you try to completely get rid of evil you would have to get rid of some goodness...

Well anyways a lot of strange streams of thoughts and ideas came through my head during my nature experience, until all at once it all stopped. All that was left was nature and I was a part of it. No thoughts, just peace. There is where I found the true beauty.

What I learned from the experiment is how much the specifics of my life don't matter to nature or to God. That my experiences live only in me and not nature. It helped me realize things that really matter, my life force, love, friendship, life itself, death, goodness, and truth, etc. There is so much else that we spend so much time thinking and worrying ourselves with that really does not matter in the end at all. As Emerson said, nature gives an alternative perspective on the world.